Being a Writer it’s inevitable that you must read your own work. Edits and revisions must be done. I’ve read, re-read and read over and again all of my books. And there was nothing different about the current book in the editing process. What was different, however, is that this was the first full novel I’ve edited. Sure there were novels before this one but they aren’t complete or finished. And yes several poetry books. But This was a complete story from beginning to end that I hadn’t read in a year. I don’t know how other writers are but I found myself in awe as I read. I flipped pages, reading with fervor! I wanted to know what happened next! At times I had to remind myself that I’d written the story. Yes I am in awe. I read parts to Husband as I went along as I don’t want him to read the full book until the new revisions are made…he loved everything I read. He even said he thought it was a ground breaking book that was currently needed in the world.
That hit me and I realized I’d been harboring many of the same fears as the main character in the book. She feared telling the truth about her life, putting herself out there…she feared the world’s judgment. I saw that because this book is different and deals with homosexuality I feared no one would want to read it, or that the book or even I would be condemned. So I took to heart a major theme of the book…what do I want? 1 – I don’t want to live in fear. 2- I want this book out in the world.
Whomever is meant to read it will read it. It’s not up to me to decide who that is.
3- I want to be like Aidan in the book…I want to be honestly me no matter what anyone thinks of that.
So, I have a new book. It’s called “Falling Through the Door.” I got scared last year to put it out into the world because of its content…I will no longer be scared. After, edits and revisions are complete the book will go to the agent. if they don’t like it, it’ll go to another one…and another. I believe Aidan’s story can benefit and help others. And I intend to keep going until someone believes it too and publishes it. If no one does I’ll self publish. One way or another, Aidan’s story will be told.
